shewasavisitor

I finished Haushofer’s The Wall and sobbed uncontrollably for 20 minutes.
Now, I am fine.

I’ve been filled with a bizarre anxiety these past few weeks. The Wall has done nothing to lull me from it.

The change of season is subtly, inexplicably stressful to me and my sore leg is still not letting me run. My strong desires to abandon current life for a great unknown are not subsiding (in the end, I will probably not do this).

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Non seq? I registered for Boston today.

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Now I’m quite calm. I can see a little further ahead. I can see that this isn’t the end. Everything goes on… something new is coming, and I can’t escape that.